Leaving 85 XXII

Just wanna say hello for today, and good bye..

I'm officially a senior high school student now. And that means I'm not longer using my old uniforms, I mean white-blue (putih-biru) or also known as junior high's. I'm not longer going to 85 JHS, it's time to say hello for 49 SHS..

I'm so sad after knowing this is the last day of my 2 months holiday. I'm not so ready to have a new life in high school :-( separate from my boyfie, I know it's a bit hard. Well but I'm trying to face this, it's one of my goal actually. Who can stand? If you're in the same school with your bf/gf for 6 years. No that won't happen anymore. He has the right to know the 'world' without me. I keep watching him thru the distance. I trust.........yea I do. :_)

I'm actually a bit curious how senior high will be. How my new friends there, and the biggest question is;

"Can I meet or even have really close friends there, just like the way I did..?"

I can't answer. Time will. Or school will. Ah.....why does life have to be really quick like this? I don't wanna grow up. I wanna be forever young. 1 thing that I'm so afraid of is, I'm afraid if he meets a girl who has a better 'everything' than me. And..will he fall for her? Forgetting me? Ignoring me? Etc? Will he? Will you?

If I know he won't, I won't post this.. or even say the things I shouldn't. Good bye my old life. Let's just start a new page, Senior High School here I come!

Random

I just found some pictures that reminds me of something happened one year ago. The pics are same, I just captured it too much (-_-) and well.. if you wanna see, here's the pic :-)

Maybe one of you will say "OMG that's hyperbole." OK I may will say the same, but don't you know it has thousands meaning of......love? We were in fight, I think. And as always, I was too selfish. I couldn't even say any words to him, I just read the messages and leave. Maybe I was too mad, by some unexpected reasons.

Personally, I trust him a lot. But when I'm in a process to gaining more trust, he breaks it professionally. Just imagine if you get the same. Yea it might be cause of some unimportant reasons, but it still hurts somehow. And now I'm confused which side I have to follow.

Sometimes, I feel like "Oh, he's fine. I wish nothing would make some fights anymore." but after I feel like that, unwanted-thing happens. Like, small fight or just 'no trust feeling anymore'. I don't really know what he does behind me. I try to always trust what he says, but....just think. "You can have love without trust first, but once that trust is broken....." fill the incomplete sentence by yourself. This trust--is broken more than 2 times. So then? :-(

Actually, this is my only dream and I really want if this happens for both of us.............................OH PARIS.

I've always wanted to visit this beautiful city, and definitely with him. You see, it has always been everyone's dream. Yea it's not as big as Indonesia, or maybe China. But there's something that makes me even interested to come to Paris..

Eiffel Tower..so beautiful. I imagine if someday I could hold your hand and walk together with you, talk about little things while walking around the garden of this tower. And then we sit, on the ground..talk about the bigger things. Maybe about our next plan, future, and others. It would be so much worth it...and if someday you'd marry me. We'd make faithfully promise to live forever after together..build our dream house..and others.

Muhammad Rory Aryansyah, please stay here. I wanna spend this whole life with you since February 12th 2010 until the end. Since I knew you and recognized each other..please be my future prince..and the one who able to always hold these hand forever :')

Something I Always Hide From People

I am me. 14 years old girl who recently tries to love someone. Feeling hurt, it's my daily. I'm technically taken, by someone. From days to days, this feeling is growing even more. Love and always want to be loved. I'm jealousy, it's really me. I honestly hate seeing him talk with other girls. I don't really like if he has a conversation with a girl. My bad habit is just one. 'Loving someone without boundaries'. I give and forgive. He gets and forget. I'm actually not a typical of romantic person. I suck people. I try to make some girls avoiding him--not because I forbid him to hang out, but I'm just too afraid of losing him for the third times.

Haura's Birthday

Hi readers c: welcome back. this week has been the most tiring week I ever had. I've to do lot of tests and homeworks and tasks. Bisa dibayangin gak sih gue harus bolos les terus gara-gara kebanyakkan tes ini itu&other school shits :-\ dan berita buruk juga teman baikku Haura Hafizhah got smallpoxes D: and this November 2nd was her birthday, so she celebrated it with smallpoxes on her body..........how sad ;-( well get well really soon my sweetie hunny bunny Haura! <3

Ohya curhat dikit ya tentang ulang tahunnya haura. This girl got bad lucky actually, before November 2nd. Jadi dia udah kesenengan gitu and she just couldn't wait to celebrate her birthday, she wrote all things about it on her twitter, tapi sayangnya kita-kita bertindak beda ya. Anti ngerencanain buat ngejutekkin Haura seminggu sebelum hari H, dan it works! ;-) Salsa, April, Lia, Anti marah tanpa sebab. &lebih ngenesnya lagi Haura udah agak ga enak badan gitu kira-kira 2minggu sebelum ulang tahunnya. April sama Salsa nyindir Haura di twitter dalem banget dan langsung nusuk sampe Haura curhat sama gue wkakakak.

Itu chat history pas ngerencanain Haura mau dikacangin wkwk

History Haura pas lagi curhat ke gue juga ada tapi ga dicantumin maaf yah yang itu aja hehe :P dan puncaknya, when it was Monday November 1st, before flag ceremony I saw her and she came to me. Dia ngomong 'Talithaaa itu Salsa sama April kenapa sih marah tanpa sebab, Lia juga tuh ikut-ikutan" dengan muka yang sangat memprihatinkan. Matanya aja berkaca-kaca wahahaha *aslinya gue kepengan ngakak depan Haura tapi kasian dia-_-* gue cuma kasih saran yang singkat padat dan jelas: "Lo harus intropeksi hau. Mau gak mau." wkwk ohiya dia juga sms gue pagi-paginya, sms kayak gini nih:

Haura oon, orang mah nyadar lagi dikerjain ini engga wkwk

Pas Senin siang (abis selesai tes pm) gue pulang kayak biasa sama Haura. Emang pas pagi-pagi mukanya udah banyak bintik-bintik merah gitu just like smallpoxes :-( tapi dia bilangnya itu jerawat. Nah sebelum pulang gue solat dulu di musholah, selesai solat Haura ketemu Jaka terus nanyain kan di muka Haura itu jerawat atau cacar. Gue gak denger mereka ngomong apa, ohya kebetulan hari itu pulang bareng Nadhirah juga. Katanya Nadhirah itu alergi tapi si Haura gue takut-takutin kalo dia cacar dan udah sekarat mau meninggal *jahat abis temen kayak gue*

Malemnya Haura curhat di twitter, dia bilang cacar tuh. Gue langsung sapa msn Haura nanyain dia bener cacar atau engga, ternyata iya. Yaudah besoknya kita (April, Anti, Ime, Salsa, Fanny, Icha, Rakhmi) termasuk gue juga pergi ke rumahnya Haura. Celebrated Haura's birthday was sooooo fun, rumahnya haura pewe bangeeeet&banyak binatang. Sayangnya gue takut gitu wkwk ini ada beberapa foto pas lagi di rumah Haura:

Potong Kue :-D

Fanny & Ime

&Anti-Rakhmi

Anti berasa yang punya rumah wkwk peace ti^^v

Haura juga punya kelinci loh lucu banget bangetan kelincinya, sayangnya gue takut sama kelinci itu wkwk *cupaw-_-* nih penampakannya:

Lucu banget kan, matanya merah soalnya kena flash aslinya engga (Y)

Dan yang terakhir.........ini kado buat haura. Once again, Happy Birthday Haura!

Sorry for late post. Udah basi banget baru ngepost sekarang wkwk. Nevermind, yang penting hepi *slogan bersama* wahaha, Happy Belated Birthday Haura WE<3you!

Realize It.

Realize.

When you did something.

Think twice.

Even though it's just a little thing.

Sometimes I'm blank,

Then I'm pretending.

Maybe people think,

How important is realizing?

Yea I'm trying to REALIZE everything I've done. Obviously, people seldom think twice before they do, okay one of them is me. It's hard you know, but actually not at all if you get used to it. Hmm. Now I'm realizing........

Have I ever hurt his heart? .......*yes*

Have I ever made my parents dissapointed of me? *......i think so*

Have I ever been a two-faced? ......*maybe*

Have I ever been a backstabber? .......*maybe*

Have I ever.........sayed bullshits? *ALWAYS*

x-o Talitha♥

My Love

HALOOOOOO. Halo. Hai. Hei. Hola. Oke apabanget.

Ini post pertama di bulan Agustus tahun 2010. Ada apa ya Agustus.....apakek. Hahaha yaa tau sendiri lah ada apa di bulan Agustus, ada Ramadhan ada Agustusan ada yg anniv *ea hahaha. Gatau nih mau ngepost apa, tapi dari awal niatan mau blogging cuma mau ngepost ga penting sih ehehe(-_-")

Cuma mau ngepost ini sih, mau ngurutin orang-orang yang gue cinta sepanjang hidup gue, mungkin atleast 'no forever' bcs i know forever is a lie. Intinya, sekarang gue sayang banget sama mereka dan gue gamau kehilangan salah satu dari mereka.

1. My Big Family, wherever you are I love you all♥ gue sayang banget banget sama keluarga gue, walaupun some of them are blangsat-ers (termasuk gue) pasti tetep disayang. Cuma keluarga yang tau diri gue yang asli, kebiasaan gue, aib gue, dan lain-lain :-) makasih mama-papa udah ngebesarin Titha sampe segede ini, Titha janji bakal ngebanggain kalian berdua dan bawa nama baik kalian berdua sepanjang hidup Titha.

2. Friends All The Way. Kawan-kawan tempat curhatkuh♥ Haura, Rakhmi, April, Atika, Ime, Nadhirah, Anti, Illa, dan Salman sahabat cowok gue satu-satunyaaa haha. Sama Vinia, sahabat deket gue dari ingusan sampe sekarang wkwk teman seperjuangan. Big thanks to you guys, gue gatau mau jadi apa kalo lo semua gaada. I love you all my best friends.

Rakhmi, Ime, Haura, April, Atika, Anti pas ngasih Surprise Party

&Vinia, Mayang, Rina.

3. Muhammad Rory Aryansyah known as Rory or My First Boyfriend♥. Rory ini pacar pertama, pacar yang paling paling paling disayang, yg sering gue curhatin, yg sering gue kangenin, yg sering banget bikin gue ketawa&nangis&senyum. Panjang ceritanya kalo tentang Rory, dari mulai kenal sampe bisa jadian gini ehehe. Sejauh ini gue udah jalan 6 bulan sama Rory (setiap tanggal 12 anniv dihitung dari bulan Maret). Rory baik banget dan dia bisa ngertiin gue, nerima gue apa adanya dan sejauh ini ga pernah marah sama gue sekalipun. Sejauh ini gue punya banyak banget kenangan sama Rory. Gue sayang banget sama Rory, gaakan mau kalo harus kehilangan dia, dan gue juga udah janji sama diri gue sendiri kalo seandainya putus gue gaakan lostcontact sama Rory♥ I LOVE YOU WITH ALL PIECES OF MY HEART. I wish he could be my first and my last. :-)

with Rory, abis nonton di citos ehehe :D

&&Rory waktu jalan ke dufan ;-D

4. All My Teachers, dimulai dari SD sampe SMP sekarang dan juga guru-guru les bimbel atau musik yang udah ngasih gue ilmu&ngebimbing gue dari ingusan sampe sekarang haha. Gue gamungkin nyebutin semua guru apalagi gue juga udah banyak lupa sama nama mereka (maaf saya pikun), intinya gue cuma bilang makasih buat semuanya. Udah ngebimbing dan ngebimbing gue jadi orang yang lebih berguna lagiii hehe. Bapak Ibu Guru, Kakak-Kakak Pengajar Di Seluruh Bimbel aku sayang kalian. Makasih buat semuanya, ilmunya, bimbingannya. Tanpa kalian ga mungkin aku bisa kayak gini♥

Bersama Angkatan 2008 SDN Depok Jaya 2, gaakan ada yg bisa nemuin gue :P

5. Gue gatau ini harus diisi sama siapa, mungkin.........my haters LOL. Everyone has haters. Walaupun cuma diem-diem, tapi gue yakin pasti ada yang sebel sama gue. Tapi gue harus bilang makasih sama kalian, soalnya kalian yg bisa bikin gue motivasi diri gue lagi jadi lebih baik. Pasti mereka sebel sama gue karena sifat gue kan? Kalo gue gapunya haters, gaakan bisa gue motivasi diri sendiri. Sooooo.....thankyou :-)

Segini dulu aja ya post gue kali ini, mungkin emang beneran gapenting hahaha. Seeyou guys on next post(:

x-o Talitha♥