Random

I just found some pictures that reminds me of something happened one year ago. The pics are same, I just captured it too much (-_-) and well.. if you wanna see, here's the pic :-)

Maybe one of you will say "OMG that's hyperbole." OK I may will say the same, but don't you know it has thousands meaning of......love? We were in fight, I think. And as always, I was too selfish. I couldn't even say any words to him, I just read the messages and leave. Maybe I was too mad, by some unexpected reasons.

Personally, I trust him a lot. But when I'm in a process to gaining more trust, he breaks it professionally. Just imagine if you get the same. Yea it might be cause of some unimportant reasons, but it still hurts somehow. And now I'm confused which side I have to follow.

Sometimes, I feel like "Oh, he's fine. I wish nothing would make some fights anymore." but after I feel like that, unwanted-thing happens. Like, small fight or just 'no trust feeling anymore'. I don't really know what he does behind me. I try to always trust what he says, but....just think. "You can have love without trust first, but once that trust is broken....." fill the incomplete sentence by yourself. This trust--is broken more than 2 times. So then? :-(

Actually, this is my only dream and I really want if this happens for both of us.............................OH PARIS.

I've always wanted to visit this beautiful city, and definitely with him. You see, it has always been everyone's dream. Yea it's not as big as Indonesia, or maybe China. But there's something that makes me even interested to come to Paris..

Eiffel Tower..so beautiful. I imagine if someday I could hold your hand and walk together with you, talk about little things while walking around the garden of this tower. And then we sit, on the ground..talk about the bigger things. Maybe about our next plan, future, and others. It would be so much worth it...and if someday you'd marry me. We'd make faithfully promise to live forever after together..build our dream house..and others.

Muhammad Rory Aryansyah, please stay here. I wanna spend this whole life with you since February 12th 2010 until the end. Since I knew you and recognized each other..please be my future prince..and the one who able to always hold these hand forever :')

My Heart Voices

Again and again... over and over again. Seriously I got tired of being like this. I may don't deserve the best, but I deserve what's good for you. I'm sooooo not in a good mood today. I thought today would be the day I'd been waiting for..but something crashed it just in a few minutes. God I don't really know what to say then. I just can't believe why he did the same for the second times...

Ah. So my thoughts were true..just too true. It happens even I don't want to. I've got such a beautiful nightmare, in a reality. GOD WHY GOD? Can't you understand, I'm too patient of getting hurt. Relax........being hurt is my daily . I get used with this, though . If a fairy mother asked me what I wanted, it would be this.

"I need someone who can understand me, no matter about my good or bad sides they are. I need someone who loves me the way I am, keeps my feeling as well as I keep his. I definitely don't know what's love, and I need someone who can make me feel 'love' in a simple way. And if someone's a plan to hurt me, make him realize if I do the same--and it might be more painful than the way I feel."

It just happens in a fairy tale..not in this crap life.

PS. Here's the one which easily boosts my mood

*Haagen dazs..me love you*